Tomorrow is my first day of work after a great holiday with my dear family and friends. 

It's Sunday evening and I feel like tomorrow is going to be a war. It's a combination of fear, disbelief and a wish that I have never come back at my workplace. I know I will be isolated, throw in the dirt, gossip and unappreciate both my mates and my boss. 

I just want to find a place where people know what is respect and wish to make things good.

Please God, keep in me the green spirit and help me to resist how much will be needed. 

There are moments when I am feeling weaker and dissapointed and I don;t know where to go. I;m telling myself to be strong and say to the fear to leave because is like a drog. Enter in my body and kill me little by little. There is no serious reason to have fear, but my mind builts some reasons just to have an activity. 

I wish I had powers to change something at my workplace: the manners in which the decisions are made, that girl who do evil wherever she goes and the self - seeking of some of my mates. 

I wish I could go to another workplace where is a normal atmosphere and team player is up. 

I wish I didn;t care. 

I wish I had a normal workplace with beautiful people. 

Now, it is much pain in my soul that only if I will go I can recover. 

Please God forget-me-not and give me the power looking  for o good job, because I have a lot to offer. 

And thanks you for all you have gave me until now. Sometimes I lose my faith but at once I raise and I follow my road. :)